So I read on Friends Reunited that Laura Barnes is getting married in Birkenhead (nice choice) and that she's having the reception on the ferry (that is a nice choice). She's 24, shes getting married, planning to start a family. I've said all this b4, but I guess it still feels weird to think about people in that way. True that Reneé Williams had a kid at like 15, and I suppose I should be over the whole "OMG this and that" about peeps I used to know, but bleh. Oddly on the same day I was thinking about this I saw Jayne (with a 'y') Kirwin at Sommerfield. I didn't say anything ( i never do), but she look very together. Big car, suit, fancy. Its been 13yrs since I last saw these peeps. I don't remember what happend on the last day of school, I don't remember why I suddenly woke up one day and thought it's been years since I spoke to these people. I mean I remember being in Tescos once and seeing Laura and being like "OMG" and running like a girl from an actual girl. I used to know them, shouldn't that mean something? Why does life have to be so ambiguious. If I see someone on the street that I used to know I should talk to them. Being shy really helps. "OMG its you hi" *breaks into sweat and dies from dehydration* ... "well nice to see you bye". Fuck, google's gunna pick all this up bad style. Someone will search for this and find it easily enuf. Man that sux, i mean you pour your heart out on your site that thankfully no-one knows off and then someone (probably the people i'm talking about) search for it and find it. Well screw it. I was thinking how I'm still rulled by fucking school. Hearing about how well people are doing in their lifes and being jealous. Dave @ work said its just like being jealous of their new shoes. Darn right. I fucking hate that I think like that. I have my own life, my own world that I life in and create that's completely seperate from them. I am happy with it, why should I be jealous??? OOh wonder how this will look with the new smilies plugin. Anyways... I was thinking tho that Emma Davis (or was it Davies, I could never remember) has a nice life. She deserves it tbh. Out of all of them from Thingwall (apart from Neil and Mat) she's the only one I spoke to over the years. I really do hope things are going well for her, and tbh I wouldn't mind talking to her. I sometimes think, well I 've known these people since I was 6 or 8 odd, when we were so innocent, and I'd just like to ask them "How's the ride?". There's a part of me that still clings to the old days, maybe its because I don't remember any of it. I do feel like there is something inside me that slightly corrupts things. I don't know if I should just (as I tried todo a while back) wipe it all away, and build new bridges. Are things really how I felt they were? Thingwall (key word for google) wasn't a great time for me. Oddly neither was 6th form. What is it about the last few months of school that just totally fucks it all up. Me?? I wish I did know what happened. Having glandual fever really didn't help things I guess. Maybe that fked up my memory. Maybe things were just fucking nasty and thats why? Have I wrote a lot?? Bah. I don't know why but for the past few hours I've been feeling excited, like if I was getting some new game or gadget. But I'm not. Maybe I'm just happy? Maybe I'm just hoping I'll have a cool dream tonight. I had a dream (by definition only) the other night, the type that sticks in your mind all day and really screws you up. Am I to be 50 and still having the same dreams? No actually I won't. There's a way out thats tricky, but I do belive that theres an option to cure this.

Tis like one of those scenes from movie where they guy press's send and it says "Are you sure...Yes...No" and he thinks about it for hours. I'm gunna press....Hmmm maybe I need to make a secret blog. One just to write my feelings out....ooooh thats a diary (dairy?? moooo). I need one of them. Ha, i just remember I had one yrs ago and it contains the same fucking entries!! Hahaha. Its me, I'm just fucked up. \o/ 2:04 am. Meh. Ooh I'm tired now cool.

Hmm i might change my name to cykachu. I'm tired of being a stupid cording device. I'd go for jedichu (ala xbox live) but, cykachu is easier transitionally speaking :) And yes I am delaying hitting Post & Publish :D Huh, end of April. May the 4th be with us soon ;)

Oh teh funny - irish virus

I've been cleaning up the image galleries alot today. Using a new gallery generator, things look a lot neater. Sorted through the images too. Theres now pics of my current hamster (chi), pics of my old hamster (ryo), pics of my pc and desk, some take with my Canon A70, Bored Students is also cleaned up, as is windows xp desktops. I'm gunna go thru my docs and see if theres anything else I want to upload. Oh theres also Q3 pics.

I'm gunna think about anything else I might want to add over the next few days, so expect more. I might look at doing some live server stats, like pc info and desktop webcam, and maybe even use my own webcam more. :D You have been warned.

So as you can see, another redesign. Why? Although the previous design is good and works well at creating the "nothing but me" affect, I felt that I wanted people to instantly read whats new, rather than clicking around to find whats new. So i've gone back to the traditional style of a blog site. But like the old I didn't want all the all the stuff many people have on their blogs, stuff I used to have. The sidebar style of weather info and links and this and that. I just felt its overkill. Too much to read, too many places for your eyes to go to. So now its, title + links, image, content. All thats needed really.

I've found 2 nice sites recently. Arial Size 8 and minor9th. Both really nice sites visually.

So this is like the 9th (??) update this year, and its nearly the 5th month. Hmm. I need to get back into the game, more updates and stuff. Daily, if not hourly :D

So what have i been doing then? Taking up pool, doing even more photography, and the usual. I've gotten totally hooked on photography now. It's been a hobby of mine since I was about 10, but now armed with my new Canon A70 I can do alot more. Check out my A70 gallery. Its a great camera, and if i do say so myself, I've taken some pretty cool photos.

Theres still a few pages that need tweaking (aren't there always), this site is over 2 yrs old, but its nearly there. I might try and come up with some new content some time. Maybe :D